The Sun Always Shines. Always On Time...

Yesterday morning I woke up to a quote on my phone that my sweet friend Mandi sent to me. It said. .."Everything will be okay in the end. If it isn't okay, then it isn't the end." I think she was inspired to send that to me because the night before was really bad. I really had given up on myself and everything else for that matter. Sometimes its just so much easier to focus on the negative and the things that stink in our lives then it is to see the bright spots. A lot of times that's because those bright spots just get covered up in so much of our other crap. And sometimes we just don't want to see them anymore. It's easier to wallow and give up than it is to stand up and fight. But unfortunately, that's the cowards road. And I am no coward. Except when it comes to spiders but that's not really relevant.

I think it's important to remember that even through the darkest of times that the sun always shines. Maybe not as bright as we would like it too, but it does shine. And it gives us light to follow no matter how faint it may appear to us. And there are people in our lives who give us light as well. And it's okay to follow their light for a while, until ours is bright enough to lead us down our own path.

I have amazing people in my life. And some super crappy ones. The key is to be able to separate the two. No matter how you may be connected. Blood doesn't make one better than another if they don't have your best interests at heart. You will know the people who love you because they are the ones who are willing to stand between you and the fire storm. And who love you even if you are dead ass, stupid as hell wrong.

My point is...hard times come to everyone. And we fall and lose our way. But don't be afraid to stand back up. Do the best you can and rely on those around you when you can't do it alone.

I love this song- Three Wishes- The Pierces

I have been melancholy lately. Mainly I'm missing some peeps that I love. Also, I'm standing in the middle of an intersection and I'm not sure which road is going to take me where I want to go. If you know me, you know what a huge deal this is because I have a superb sense of direction. And I like to know stuff. I don't know stuff right now. I'm not sure when I will be let in on the secret, either.
I'm getting ready to register for school and I'm nervous about it. What if my 13 year old is right and I am too old? And I am technically a blonde, you know.... so there's that. I didn't like math the first time I tried to do it.

I was able to talk to my sweet friend today, and she is really dumb in her own life, but gives great advice to others. And I can say that because she knows I love her and also because it's just plain true. She has a great heart and it gets her in trouble sometimes. But she knows this and loves anyway. I wouldn't change her for the world. She has my loyalty forever. She just needs to listen to me instead of her. But She makes me feel better and for that, I'm grateful.

I love the lyrics of this song. They are so true. If our hearts were iron we wouldn't get hurt. There are drawbacks- I get it. But people are mean. And I am soft. No one really knows that because I am strong. It has been my experience that the people who profess their greatness are the meanest ones. There is a quote by Maya Angelou that says something like when people tell you who they are, believe them. I used to think this was always true, but I've learned that it isn't. Whatever. I guess we learn by getting hurt. We cannot build an armor around us because we would never love. That would be sad. So it's better to deal with crap that we don't like than to be isolated. We can't have everything we want. It isn't prudent.

The intersection I'm standing in has a couple of great roads. I could be happy down any of them. But I gotta find the best road, and that road will have potholes. I might fall down and scrape my knee, probably more than once... but when I reach my destination it will all have been worth it. And that is what I have to focus on.

If we never have bitter we cannot know delicious. And that is the truth.





***Disclaimer- apparently this has been featured on "Gossip Girl". I didn't know that. I'm cool enough to have found this on my own.

That is all.

Random songs stuck in my head...

I have this bad habit of getting songs stuck in my head and not being able to get them out for days. So, I thought I'd share a couple of them.

The first is Just Jack. Minus the gay ass jazz hands, of course.



And the second is Snow Patrol. But I always have Gary in my head so that's nothing new. My favorite line is: I think the finish line's a good place we could start. Take a deep breath, take in all that you could want.



Well, there they are. No particular reason for them being in my head. They just are. Enjoy.

The Time For Maybe Is Over

There has to come a point in a persons life when they decide to stand up and fight for something more. It's hard and scary and sometimes you walk alone, but in the end you will be better for it. It will make you stronger and wiser. You never know the outcome, but ultimately you can say, Hey this didn't go exactly how I had hoped, or this went straight down the pooper, but I tried. And at least I can say I did something. One of my dearest friends always tells me 'it's time to shit or get off the pot.' I'm getting off the pot. It's time to go after the things I want.

staciacleo lightbody-flowers: hottest. baby. ever.

If Stacia and I had a baby, not only would it have great teeth, an overwhelmingly wonderful (although sometimes inappropriate) sense of humor, unrivaled fashion sense, beautiful hair, and quite frankly the best life EVER... but it would prolly sound a little like this...





While I do prefer the lower key of the original Chasing Cars, I have found this to be interesting and quite creative.

How I'm Feelin'.... Cleo style

I. love. this. song. I just think it's so poignant and beautiful. Not sure why, but it's been in my head for several days and I think we need to appreciate it for a few minutes. Ima go to sleep now.






Of all the things we should've said,
That were never said.
All the things we should've done,
That we never did.
All the things that you needed from me.
All the things that you wanted for me.
All the things that I should've given,
But I didn't.



I know you have a little life in you yet.
I know you have a lot of strength left.

Just a few things I really want...

I really want to be an international pole dancing sensation but with the stretch marks from my four kids I don't think that's gonna happen.

I really want to eat cocoa pebbles instead of raisin bran but I have to wear a bikini in 4 weeks and the first isn't helping matters.

I really want to be able to poop on a regular basis but alas, it isn't my lot.

I really want another tattoo but I'm a big fat chicken.

I really want to take a trip to Hawaii to wear my bikini instead of Lava Hot Springs but I can't afford it.

I really want to be a DJ and have my own show where I can play all the music I like and have a wicked cool DJ name but how do you make Stacy Benoit cool, you don't.

I really want to take a bath in dark chocolate but I'm afraid I'll get a yeast infection.

I really want to have sex with Bradley Cooper but he doesn't know I exist.

I really want to be a rockette but I'm too short. Stupid 5'9 cut off.

I really want to wear a snake skin mini skirt and be in a hair video but they don't make hair videos anymore.

I really want to have everything in my life fall into place exactly the way I want and live happily ever after but I'm not cinder-friggin-rella.


That is all.

For now.