I was chatting with a friend earlier tonight and got on the subject of relationships. We are both in our thirties and were saying how sometimes we still feel like we're sixteen. I thought all the insecurities and jealousies and wondering went away when you were older and obviously more mature. But honestly, I think we have more life experience and a little bit more logic and that makes it worse. Instead of running on pure emotion, we question. We attach stereotypes and past experiences. We think logically about the negative and how things can't possibly work. And of course, we bring along all our ridiculous baggage and assume that nobody would in their right minds want to be a part of that.
So, I've decided that, just for a little while, I'm going to focus on the good part of feeling sixteen again. Enjoying the newness and being a part of something really amazing. Getting butterflies in your stomach whenever you touch. Not being able to wait til the next time you get to see each other. And being around someone that makes you smile so much that your face actually starts to hurt. It's really an amazing thing feeling sixteen again.
It's too bad sending a note that says "Do you love me? Check the box." Isn't really acceptable at 33.
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