It's only once in a blue moon that you find a song that can 100% fully embody what you are feeling in your life at a particular time. Well, my friends, I have found it. It's angry and self loathing and screw you perfect. I should have looked to Fiona a long time ago. She has never let me down before. Perfect I tell you!!!
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Amen, Sistah! My perfect song too...that and Cold Desert by Kings of Leon...only he'd already grown tired of "crossing lines", possibly even burned by it...and his own sick sense of chronic guilt over something that happened years ago--got him all figured out--makes him say "love is a hell [he] cannot bear". Despite all my rationalization and "strength", somehow it still bothers me! It does get easier though, I promise! Friends get us through--TRUE friends you can be yourself with 100% and know they can't reject you because they are the same exact level of nutcase as you are! And if they do, well you can just call them a nutcase.:)
Oh, and I don't see it as self-loathing...it's a defense against blaming herself like he obviously tried to do....They thrive on us wanting them, they get off on winning a heart they have no intention of doing anything with, and then try to tell us for we're crazy for letting him get to us...after he probably said something or acted like we shouldn't be so negative when we didn't trust him to start off. My devil point blank asked me why I didn't trust. Just the fact that he asked me that question made me think he would care. It was probably the turning point to when I decided to start letting my guard down...then he began to hurt me. Pure evil.
I love ya Ann. I'm so sorry that you're having to deal with all the crap in your life right now. I wish I could make it go away for ya.
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